I received a message from a friend about a certain decision that would have an impact on his life and on our friendship. We actually had talked about it before that when something like this comes up, he should have to really think about it and not put our friendship on the line.
The thing is, with the recent events, I have stopped responding to his text messages because I felt bad that I am only remembered when I am needed. Even up to the moment that I grieve, I am being asked about certain things. It is sad that when I needed a friend, I would find myself alone.
At this exact moment, I am devastated and depressed that I have to go through this emotional pain all by myself. Worse, I have to be strong for the people who are around me. The friend that I have known for over a decade is gone.
I am gripping to the statement that blessed are those who can give light to others even when they themselves are in darkness. The thing is, my flame is slowly fading out. I am losing grip.
Teacher Jared 